Called from a Young Age to Serve a Greater Purpose
Since I was small, I always have had this incredible sense of destiny, a desire to serve the greater good. Because of that, I have spent my life looking for the things I can do, places where I can serve with purpose and truly give to mankind. Many times I thought I knew what this meant and how it would translate in my life, work, and spiritual calling. But somehow, many of the things I thought would come to pass have not.
When Everything Fell Apart: Facing My Greatest Career Failure
One such time, I entered into what seemed like a great plan to turn a company around and serve all at the same time. So many things came together swiftly and smoothly. I thought this meant everything else in this venture would come together in like manner. However, that wasn’t the case. I experienced the biggest failure in my career, and it was costly. I lost my source of income, reputation, credibility, and an incredible amount of confidence. My head was spinning in the wake of this downfall. I couldn’t think straight and felt fragile for the first time in my adult life.
A Vision in the Storm: God's Perspective on My Defeat
Immediately following this final meeting, I stepped into the shower before flying home. I closed my eyes, and as soon as the water hit me, God gave me a vision of me stepping onto the other side of the Red Sea with Jesus, and the walls of water fell and drowned all my enemies. The Lord assured me that to Him, this was my greatest victory. I was stunned and then thought, “Okay, He’s going to make everything right.” All kinds of scenarios swirled through my brain as to how He would do that. Long story short, none of those scenarios came true. What I thought would be a quick turnaround was not. In fact, it has been a long and excruciating road.
Boldness in Uncertainty: Answering a New Calling
Now, I am being called into something new, something that requires an incredible amount of trust in the Lord, vulnerability, and a militant tenacity. In other words, the Lord is calling me to something that evokes an incredible amount of uncertainty and fear. Then last night, I was reminded that the real triumph of faith is not about the end result. It is about trusting the Lord and moving forward with boldness, even if in the end, it looks like an incredible failure to the rest of the world. As Teddy Roosevelt once said, the real credit goes to the person:
